Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. The water/swimming.

I’ve never been a very good swimmer & I’ve never really taken a liking to the water. When I lived in Texas, I nearly drowned in a water park & since then I’ve been very reluctant to go into the water. The thought of drowning & running out of breath terrifies me.

2. Rides/Roller coasters.

I hate that feeling you get in your stomach when you free fall. I’ve only been on one roller coaster & I hated it. Say what you want about me, I’m not the only person that doesn’t like rides.

3. Disappointing my friends/family.

Mostly my daughter. I never want to disappoint her. I want to make sure I provide for her in every way possible. She’s my entire world. I also can’t stand when I upset my friends or my sister. I want them to see me succeed.

Trying this again.

Via: http://cherishinghopesanddreams.blogspot.com/2012/01/30-things.html

List 20 random facts about yourself.

1. I went to 12 different schools growing up.

2. I didn’t become truly comfortable with the person I am until after high school.

3. I hate the beach.

4. If I feel betrayed by a person, I have no problem casting them out.

5. I don’t consider Nascar a sport, even though I respect what they do.

6. I was watching ESPN as I wrote #5.

7. It is very difficult for me to accept failure.

8. I still have a MySpace account because there are videos on there that I don’t want to lose, I also go back from time to time & read old comments/messages.

9. I tend to live in the past too often.

10. When I’m in a relationship, I give 110%

11. My friend’s have been more of a family to me than most of my actual family ever has.

12. It’s very easy for me to put other people’s problems into perspective, however, when it comes to my life I sometimes feel like I’m trying to put together a 1000 piece puzzle.

13. I didn’t start drinking until I was 22.

14. All throughout grade school, I was constantly ridiculed about my height, & even though I laughed it off, it’s an ongoing shot to my self esteem. I just want to be a few inches taller.

15. College for me was a huge waste of time.

16. I’ve never been more disappointed in a person than I am of you.

17. Being in a flash mob is on my bucket list.

18. There are people from my past that I want to apologize to.

19. While being famous because of stand up comedy is my dream, it’s an even bigger dream to make enough money so that my daughter never has to worry about it.

20. The future is very blurry for me right now, but hopefully I’m going in the right direction.

Sometimes, all we need is for someone to say to us, “no matter what you decide to do, I’ll support you.” In my time of need, all I kept hearing was people telling me to do this & do that. Only on a few occasions did someone say to me, “you know what, I may not agree with your decision, but I’ll support whatever it may be.” We don’t need  people telling us what she should & should not do. We need people to have our backs & to be there for us when we need them. So if you’re my friend & you’re going through a rough time in your life & you’ve got people in your ear telling you you’re doing something wrong, tell them to shut the fuck up. I support you. It’s your life, do what you want with it.

However, if you’re being a complete idiot, I’ll call you out on it. :)

That is all.

I didn’t have to deal with any of this shit with my Plano friends. I’ve been friends with the same three people & never had any problems. Y’all ain’t worth the stress. With exception of two, MAYBE three people. From now on, the only seats available at this table, are reserve only.

It’s almost impossible for me to sleep right now. Big big changes are on the way. All of them will be for the better. My life has been forever changed. A lot of people are going to be happy, a lot of people are going to be upset. But, all that matters in the long run, is myself & my happiness. I have no idea what’s going to happen within the next few days & weeks, but I know it’s going to get messy. Brace yourselves, people. Things are about to get very interesting.